WHO I AM AS AN AVIAN

This one's gonna be a little silly and dumb, but it's the one I was most excited to write about! I poured my heart and soul into this page in the most honest way I could, do I hope you enjoy it.

I've always had wings in my dreams. They're just a fact of life to me, my other body just- has wings. I could never fly with these wings, they were just a static part of me, one that I never really tried to use. On July 23rd, 2019, I had a different dream.
In this one, I flew over a river and off a cliff. The sun shimmered against the water and the dark pine trees seemed darker in front of the pink and purple sky. The drop from the cliff was exhilarating, watching the rocks fly past me and the lake below speed toward my face. It was beautiful, and more importantly, freeing. This dream made me realize how badly I wanted that freedom. I wanted wings in both worlds, to fly whenever I wanted, not just when my mind occasionally granted it to me.

I've flown in my dreams many times since then, and god, I can tell you, the years of pain it will take to grow these wings is worth every moment of it.

Of course, just declaring that you'll fucking grow wings and fly will not just give them to you. I needed to find the means to do it myself. That day, I spent hours just sitting on my phone, looking for anyone that can tell me it's possible. I couldn't find anything, and I was getting worried. That night, I found a page on blogspot. It wasn't the contents of the post itself that stuck out to me.

Someone else was doing it

Someone else had the same taste for freedom that I had. I was not going into this alone and blind. Someone else is here. If no one had tried this before, by god I was going to be the first, but I'm not.
You may think that growing wings would be a common ideal, something many people have wanted and worked towards. Maybe, but no matter how hard I searched, I just couldn't find anything.

Soon after that, I was back to searching. This person told me that there were others like me, but not how we could get to this fantastical goal of ours. Eventually, I stumbled across a wattpad journal. I found it! The rest of our community, I've had wattpad on my phone for years at this point, and they were all right there, under my nose.
I lurked around for about a year, just researching, learning about how it's done. Soon, I made this journal! This marks the real beginning of my journey. Exactly a year later, July 23rd.

as you would assume, 7/23 is a very special day for me. These wings I've been working towards for years are important to me. I swear to you, I have never wanted anything this badly in my entire life, and there will never be anything I want more than flight. Avians have to give up their lives and go into hiding, and I will take that in a heartbeat if it means I can fly.